Life has gone a little bit crazy lately. Everything has changed as I knew it and its just a little bit strange. I honestly don't really know what this post is going to be, I feel a little bit like I'm going to channel my inner Cady Heron and word vomit all up in here, but I feel like it's needed for the both of us. I've been a little MIA. I feel like I've been saying that a lot, but when everything gets hectic in life, the last thing I remember to do is sitting down to write for my little space on the internet. I actually always forget how much I love it.
I recently graduated, I've started a new job, I've moved house to live with complete strangers all alongside a whole lot of other hectic life things that I can't really talk about. So as you can imagine, it's all a bit up in the air at the minute. But I want to take this as an opportunity and grab hold of this opportunity with as much grip as possible.
I'm not saying I want to reinvent myself, I'm not saying I want to change, I just want to be able to give myself the best chance. It might feel a bit difficult right now, it's going to take a while to adjust but in the grand scheme of things I'm really excited about the possibilities. I just want to take a bit of a step back and think about what I want, and this probably is sounding like one of those 'I'm stopping blogging' posts and I assure you it's not... I mean it couldn't be further from the case actually. I'm trying to get to the point of the fact that I really want to blog more, I want to take that 'me time' to have a pamper and write content and make videos because essentially that is really what I love doing and I don't want to get lost in all of the hectic mess that life can be.
So as I'm writing this, I'm thinking about what I want to do. What I want to do with my weekend. What I want to do with my (very near) future. And that's this. Although it's going to be bloody hard. Blogging full-time is what a lot of people do, it's what they do for their job and this is what I do alongside my job and I just need to get used to that. I also want to be able to give myself 'me time' in another sense. I want to be able to enjoy being by myself, I want to be able to have the time to give myself a good ol' pamper (that I have been completely neglecting as of late) and I want to be able to just enjoy being me.
I didn't really know what to call this post, I mean I still don't really but I wanted it to be about how I want to give myself a chance to improve. Not for anyone, just for myself. I want to look after myself better, eat more healthily and do all of those kinds of things for me and I really have been making great steps towards that already and I feel like a great weight has been lifted off of my shoulders.
Eating healthily and eating better is something I always strive to do but I've found that this time around it's working so much better and I think it's because I don't feel like I'm forcing myself. Hello courgetti obsession, I don't see you leaving me any time soon!
I want to give myself a good pamper every now and again. I've got myself a fancy toothbrush, the Oral B Pro 6500 Black Smart Series toothbrush to be precise. Everyone always dreams about having gleaming white and shiny teeth and I'm making steps to make that a reality. I've also been thinking about getting invisible braces and an inman aligner is on my radar at the minute... but I guess that's something that will come later down the line. My fancy new toothbrush that connects with my phone via. bluetooth will just have to do!
Remember when I talked about how I started epilating? Well I've also got back onto that bandwagon, I feel a little weird mentioning this here. I'm not saying this is what you need to do to feel better and go along with a big change, I'm just saying this is what I'm doing to make myself feel like I am making a conscious effort to better me. I've been using the Braun Silk-epil 9 SkinSpa Wet and Dry Epilator* and I've fallen in love. It's better than any I've ever tried before and it's so much easier. I'm going to write a post on this soon as it's a life changer but I just had to give it a mention in the mean time...
I want to spend more time lighting my favourite candles and face masks and watching my favourite YouTube videos and making them myself. I want to sit in a fluffy dressing gown and my new Tommy Tou Sheepskin Mule Slippers* (which are blooming comfy and incredible quality by the way) and just feel super snug and super content. I want to be able to relax, and when I say relax I mean really relax. I want to actually feel like I've got not as much to worry about, not as much to think about. I want to go to more gigs (I've already started making steps towards this, hello Florence next month and Death Cab for Cutie in November).
Essentially, I just want to start doing more things for me. I think that way I'll be able to work out what I want to do with my life and be happy with that decision. I always say that I don't want to be that person that goes into work every single day hating their job and hating what they do. I mean I know every day at work isn't going to be all fine and dandy but I kind of mean a bit more than that. I want to want to be doing what I'm doing and I just know I'm heading in the right direction for that.
I feel like this post could go on forever. I'm getting sleepy as I keep tapping away at my keyboard and I think that means it's probably time to sign off. I don't really know if I should hit the post button, but go on. What's a little word vomit between friends anyway?